Laura is ill again. Fevers and all that. We’re moving in 3 days… On top of that life is crazy as it is, having met my Father on Friday (my Mom being there as well), worrying for his life and the bf also being the usual exhausting self, I am more reliant on nicotine and caffeine than I want to be.
If I said I want to get in touch/answer texts or mails - sorry x100.
“I asked my ex, now good friend, if she would ever have an open relationship and she said, “No, I don’t think I could do that” then after a pause and a smile, “but what about love affair friendships?” She went on to describe an impenetrable fortress of female friendship, her own group of best mates who’d known each other since school and had supported and loved each other through almost all of their lifetimes. They sounded far more bonded to, and in love with one another, than their respective husbands. It struck me that we don’t have the language to reflect the diversity and breadth of connections we experience. Why is sex the thing we tend to define a relationship by, when in fact it can be simple casual fun without a deep emotional transaction? Why do we say “just friends” when, for some of us, a friendship goes deeper? Can we define a new currency of commitment that celebrates and values this? Instead of having multiple confusing interpretations of the same word, could we have different words? What if we viewed our relationships as a pyramid structure with our primary partner at the top and a host of lovers, friends, spiritual soul mates, colleagues, and acquaintances beneath that?”
“i care too much,
or not at all
it fucking sucks”
I haven’t done one of these in a long time.
Laura is now 9 months and 3 weeks old, so almost two months away from being a year old. Crazy.
She’s eating 3 meals a day while also having 3 bottles of milk (BEBA 2). At her recent check-up she was 72,5cm tall and weighed 9,17kg. She’s measuring at around 70-75% according to WHO’s child growth percentiles so that’s good. It’s the first time she’s considered of “average height”, before she was always on the shorter side.
A couple weeks ago we switched to only using cloth diapers. Originially I wanted to wait until our move (… I’ll have more space to hang laundry) but I couldn’t resist trying them. I really liked the Naty by Nature organic diapers but they are too expensive for my pocket. Considering we’ll still have a long way to go with diapers, it just didn’t make sense to choose these disposables, even if they’re the “better” solution compared to Pampers.
On to the developmental parts: Laura likes to stand up EVERYWHERE now. She climbs furniture and uses anything that crosses her way as help to get up on her feet. She falls a lot though.
I realized that Laura can properly crawl when she’s not wearing pants that make her slip on the floor. She still does her army crawl sometimes when she wants to go faster.
I’m also pretty sure that Laura calls me “mamamamam”. And she knows her Dad is called “Daddy” and Kacey is “doggie”. If I ask her where they are, she’ll look for them.
Laura takes two naps a day, a short one in the morning and a longer one in the afternoon.
Nighttime sleep has been a bit of a struggle ever since she was sick a few months ago, but we’re getting there. She will definitely benefit from having her own room soon.
Hey! I wish I could help but while I did technically “get” an epidural, it didn’t work for me.
My spine is crooked and it took about 30-45 minutes to just put the needle in and even then it was in the wrong spot. If you’ve already done your research, you’ll know that it has to be done precisely and that wasn’t possible in my case.
Funny though, only weeks after birth I found out that the reason why my pain got more tolerable after the epidural, wasn’t BECAUSE of the epidural - but because my contractions slowed down, which is why I had to be put on pitocin afterwards (or whatever it is, usually pitocin, might have been something different for me).
Don’t think about it too much, wait for how your labor goes and don’t stress yourself out. This is a natural thing for our bodies, no need to worry. You’ll have a precious little one soon, that’s worth every pain :)